You all know by now that I have been/am stressed about my current situation. Waiting to hear from God about where he is calling me, trying to live on a half-salary that barely covers rent and essentials, worrying about where I and “the critter” are going to live. I have bounced between faith and despair, doubt and confidence, hope and hopelessness.
Then I got an email from a person who has been a friend since the first congregation I served in over 20 years ago. She reminded me that when she was nearing the end of a job and facing homelessness and financial difficulty that the person who advised her reminded her that financial worries were something that was stressful and that worrying despite praying was perfectly normal and natural. The person who validated her feelings and supported her in that concern with this wise counsel–was me. Such a reminder that we have the keys to our own healing, the wisdom to our own seeking, and the guidance for our own growth–if we only look to the Spirit who lives within us. I felt humbled and blessed.
But it got better than that, as this very same friend relayed to me a blessing from Scripture saying that God had revealed to her his greatness as she was reading Genesis Chapter 1. Surely she said the God who created the universe out of chaos could make a place for her out of nothing….. and a place for me out of the chaos of my life.
Oh how I started to feel like God had filled my life with people whom he had created to be a blessing.
This past week I met someone. She was a friend of a friend and as we sat together in my friends family room and chatted I was so impressed with her. She was kind, generous, wise and gracious. We found many things to talk about ….life, family, grandchildren and of course the friends we shared, who have left a trail of blessing everywhere they have been. As she took her leave the next morning, she came to me and whispered a blessing from Proverbs.
God had brought someone new into my life and used her as a blessing. God’s people, whether we know them or not are those through whom he blesses us.
I later looked it up the passage my new friends had mentioned, this section was a part of a whole series of blessings. Immediately I greedily thought, “I want this whole passage”. Well duh! God’s word is God’s word for me, whether someone speaks it specifically to me or not. God’s word is God’s word for me even when I don’t know it or read it. But if I want to know what that blessing is, I have to read it, wrestle with it, pray over it and allow God to release it into my life.
So today I open myself up to God’s blessing, his whole blessing, as well as those blessings brought to me by his loving people. And because God’s word is a gift to you as well as to me I open it up to you as well. May these blessings from God fill your lives to overflowing and may you in turn be a part of his blessing to the world.
My child, do not forget my teaching,
but let your heart keep my commandments;
for length of days and years of life
and abundant welfare they will give you.
Do not let loyalty and faithfulness forsake you;
bind them round your neck,
write them on the tablet of your heart.
So you will find favour and good repute
in the sight of God and of people.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not rely on your own insight.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
Do not be wise in your own eyes;
fear the Lord, and turn away from evil.
It will be a healing for your flesh
and a refreshment for your body.
Honour the Lord with your substance
and with the first fruits of all your produce;
then your barns will be filled with plenty,
and your vats will be bursting with wine.